Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m completely unwanted. My parents aren’t proud of me (and why should they be, I’m unemployed and living at home, how pathetic), and though I’m sending out resumés and job applications by the stack, I have yet to get much of any response from them.
I hate the feeling of rejection, well of course I do, everyone hates rejection, but rejection has always been something I have struggled with. Also feelings of failure. In case you are wondering why I haven’t posted any blog entries in the last week and a half, well besides the fact that I’ve been very busy, I just don’t feel that anything I’m doing is worth a blog entry.
Meaningless, everything is meaningless. I have no job, I have no purpose, it’s all just meaningless.